what am i to do now?

 i recently got this self-care and mood tracking app where the more you log in your mental health check-ins with the app, and fulfill your mini-goals, the more this baby penguin grows up. you can customize it, invite your friends to use the same app to unlock a mini pet, and more features. it's cute and useful, especially if maybe you don't have any mental health support.

there's an option to have goal oriented journeys. that made me realize that i'm living a unfocused life. i want to move away, but i don't want to use that as a convenient excuse to not really do much of anything. i'm dealing with struggles in mental health i've mentioned before. maybe this app could help me focus.

learning mandarin calms me down, and i love to write the intricate characters, and i like how when you string them together, it communicates an accurate and understandable message. i am learning mandarin, i suppose, as a hobby. i'm taking a break from learning korean, and i'm revisiting japanese everyday at this point after i study enough mandarin for that day.

i think i need to re-organize my room but i still need to choose a goal.

here are the goal & journey options in the penguin app:

• feel more optimistic through gratitude
• improve my focus
• manage anxiety
• boost my energy
• show care for others
• build my confidence
• take time for personal joys
• stay connected with friends
• appreciate the moments in life
• cultivate work-life harmony
• just survive the day
• tidy space, tidy mind
• connect with my community
• so fresh, so clean (3LW reference? lol)
• spend quality time with family
• greet the day
• power up with better sleep
• start moving, get healthy
• new year, new you
• nourish my body
• feel more adventurous
• feel calm and mindful
• strengthen my connection with myself

i decided to start the "tidy space, tidy mind" journey. it just basically gives you a lot of related goals that matches the theme of the journey. hopefully i won't get discouraged.  i might add watching anime to my goal too to progress my anime watching challenge, even though i feel depressed due to losing a friend group that i can talk about anime with.

the app can easily feel a bit confusing and overwhelming if you aren't careful, and the goals don't truly align with you.

remember that cleanliness is next to godliness, ladies (and men, lol). 

i was able to acquire these headphones today, and i'm really excited for that. i need to update myfigurecollection page to note down that i acquired these. i'm still in disbelief i was able to acquire these, yay. i will take the best care of them :3

it would be cool if these were noise cancelling. i think that goes for a product unboxing and review video, yaay!! :3

i never seen anyone talk about these headphones, and i only heard of it via a listing, so it would be cool to make the first youtube video about this.

everytime i get more official hatsune miku merchandise, my life gets a lot better. 

this will help me to become more productive because the design is pretty and i finally got a pair of headphones that aren't just functional but breathtakingly beautiful as well. it's just that, i study mandarin on my phone, not on my laptop and i'd need a adapter to use those headphones with my phone nowadays. (they need to bring back the headphone jack!!)

if i was to design a phone, i would add a slot or two for a phone charm, and a headphone jack, lol. i'm happy my modern phone has a slot for a phone charm, so cool ^-^

i also got a haruhi suzumiya patch (absolutely obsessed with that anime) that i'm going to sew onto my schoolbag and use it for a youtube video, so i'm pretty excited for that.