understanding the feelings of fomo

 it's easy for me to feel like i'm missing out on something, even if i look at things from the past. i confused people who have tried to help me about bringing up that "phenomena" but it was difficult to describe. now, not so much, fortunately.

i feel a bit envious when watching cartoons of the past because at the end of the day, there was a team that got together to create something, for you to enjoy, a person of the future. i wish i could meet new people and collaborate on something like that, but it doesn't necessarily have to be cookie cutter, if that makes any sense. like, ideally perfect, because a lot of flaws can be charming too. not necessarily intentional flaws.

i hope to feel better soon now that i'm in college and everything.

i want to be happy, and now i'm able to pinpoint what that means.  i want to fricking live.

that's it. bye