here's to feeling unhappy

 i'm not sure why i feel so depressed all of a sudden. i saw the newest pictures that my crush from high school uploaded to social media. i'm happy for him to be more extroverted and everything, but part of me feels confused at what i'm looking at. i think i am in love with the person that he used to be several years ago, and i'm not sure how to let him go, especially because he showed support for my blog in the past. for some reason, i feel stupid. he's not who i expected to be in the inside at all, the more i see more of his newest post. it could be i was in love with just the sneak peaks of who he really is. he seems to surround himself with the party type, and i didn't really get to become that extroverted growing up, so of course he would overlook me.

i just feel a little silly for feeling like he could've been the one for me, or something. he was really cute, kind, gentle and friendly. it's easy to make stereotypes out of extroverted people but i'm sure he's just having fun with all of his friends that tend to be girls. it is what it is. i wish i can let go of him but it would be awkward to follow request him and everything. he's not a bad person.