insecurity

 i'm happy that i have somewhat of a ability to create satsifying music now. but why am i making music? i suppose i just want to matter in a lot of people's books. a lot of people care for producers, not only because they are people but because they created this typically iconic piece used in various contexts. it's strange to say that you are composing music for attention or something, though. i just want to feel like i matter, is all. i'm sure my musical skills can grow up in time.